I Wasn’t Always This Dad: A Father’s Day Story of Change

LifeCoachATL
Jun 15
3 min read

Updated: Jun 25

I never had a blueprint for what it meant to be a good father.

My biological dad was killed when I was about three years old, and I didn’t have a consistent male role model until I was adopted around age 11 or 12. That means a lot of what I learned about manhood, love, and family came through pain, survival, and trial and error.

But if you’re a dad reading this thinking, “It’s too late for me to change,” I need you to hear this loud and clear: It’s not too late. I’m living proof.

At LifeCoachATL, I work with dads who are ready to break the cycle. I’ve done it in my own life—breaking free from the chains of alcoholism, mental abuse, sexual abuse, physical abuse, and neglect. But let me be honest: my relationship with my kids wasn’t always strong. In fact, at one point, I wasn’t the father they needed at all.

My Journey Didn’t Happen Overnight

I thought I was doing the best I could, but looking back, I was operating from brokenness. I used to tell my son JC to “man up,” thinking I was toughening him up. What I didn’t realize was that I was silencing his emotions.

With my daughter Kate, we just didn’t click. We didn’t enjoy the same activities, and for a while, I believed that meant we couldn’t connect. But I started calling her—just to check in, just to hear about her world. Over time, those calls built a bridge.

Kennedy and I used to butt heads. We’re so much alike that it felt like every interaction was a battle. I told her to stop crying once, threatening that I’d give her something to cry about. That still haunts me. But through humility, real conversation, and listening—really listening—our bond transformed. Now she opens up to me about things I never thought she would.

And Taylor… I thought I was doing everything right. But my anger would flare up, and I’d justify it because I was “there.” But presence without emotional safety isn’t enough. I had to apologize and show her that I was committed to being better.

None of this happened in a week. It was JC who first noticed my growth. He told his sisters, “Y’all got to give him a chance—he really has changed.” That moment broke me—and healed me at the same time. Because I realized the hard work was finally starting to matter.

3 Steps That Helped Me Become the Father I Am Today

If you’re a dad—or just a man—wondering how to start repairing the damage, here’s what helped me:

1. Apologize and Mean It

No explanations. No “but you have to understand.” Just real, raw ownership. “I was wrong. I hurt you. I’m sorry.”

2. Show Up in Their World

Even when it’s uncomfortable or unfamiliar. Call them. Sit with them. Ask questions. Whether it was anime, debates, or just listening to music—I found ways to be where they were, not just where I was comfortable.

3. Invest in Your Own Healing

You can’t be a better father if you don’t become a better man. Coaching, therapy, books, prayer—whatever it is for you. At LifeCoachATL, I walk with men through that process every day. I help hold them accountable, not just as dads—but as men who want to change their family legacy.

Fatherhood Isn’t About Perfection

It’s about presence. It’s about growth. It’s about choosing to show up even when you weren’t shown how. And most of all, it’s about love—the kind that heals, rebuilds, and moves forward.

If you’re reading this on Father’s Day feeling like you’ve messed up too much or missed too much time—stop. Your kids don’t need a perfect dad. They need a dad who’s willing to try, to change, and to fight for the bond that can still be built.

I wasn’t always the man or father I am today. But I became the dad my kids could be proud of—not because I had all the answers, but because I refused to give up.